My family has had a lot of challenges over the last few years, traumatic births, deaths, relationship breakdowns, health worries, house moves, money challenges – you know what I mean – General stinking hard work life!! Personally the season of life is changing for me, I can see the glimmer of light through the clouds. I can’t yet feel the sunlight’s warmth but I know it won’t be long till I do and the sky is already looking brighter over my head.
Life hasn’t changed I’m still facing more challenges than some days I feel is fair for a human to cope with. Some days my heart still feels heavy for my family and friends burdens.
I have changed though and it’s that change, that’s making these challenges all the more manageable.
This hasn’t been a crazy ‘bang’ moment of awakening, this hasn’t been a retreat filled weekend of meditation, this hasn’t been an injection of money or an influx of support for these challenges I face. This has been a slow and gradual acceptance of what I’m capable of, this has been an inward look at my character and my strengths and weakness’. Call it a personal appraisal, and I’ve been the supervisor and the employee all at once.
It’s not easy sometimes to question who you are, where you’ve come from and where you’re going but I now feel it’s important. To re-evaluate those goals, to check on our own workload and make changes in our surroundings. I know it’s not always possible to make big changes, our responsibilities can sometimes dictate our place in the world.
We can however change our internal thoughts processes, adapt our personal goals and how we value ourselves. I’m sure with a few tweaks and adjustments you too can see a glimmer of sunshine even on the days when the world seems determined to try you.
Lewis and Haase Queen
Read more from Kerry at her blog: Charlie's Upside Down Again